Who else would have the patience to reason with my endless nonsense if its not Haikal.
My boy has been amazing day after day and i am so blessed. :)
22 months with my darling boy.
I have not made the last few months easy for him. Somehow, for some reason, he choose to put up with my nonsense, never gave up on me, won me over countless number of times.
I love you, Muhammad Haikal. 22 months and counting.
Thank you for being what i need. <3 <3
2011 has been so good to me.
Work that has meant more for me than just completing tasks:
I worked in a childcare for 6 months. I know it was hard, but all i remember now is how much i love the children in there.
I worked in Warehouse for a week. I learned how important it is to be friendly. And how happy it makes me to be friendly to other people. I honestly think that job helped me in my other interviews after that.
I secured a position in MOM. Had my orientation which has made me more compassionate and i now genuinely care more for foreign workers. Its gonna help me deliver my task better when im on duty.
My relationship with Haikal has matured. I now see how truly amazing he is. He’s been so generous, kind and patient. He has made me feel so loved and protected. And he has shown me to practice commitment in a relationship, which i have once preached endlessly about but did not even know how to begin practicing it. He makes me wanna be the best for him like he has been the best for me. I love him so dearly, and I will be good for him in the upcoming year.
I found out who are my friends who never fails to have my back. I feel so blessed to have my girls, Nisa, Nas, Becky, Amni, Shil and Nad. I might not have many friends, but these girls are all I need. They have been my pillar of strength when I’m in doubt, and they have shared my happiness when im in joy. I’m not the same person without each of these girls and they mean the world to me.
Lastly, my family has been amazing to me. Everyone has been so supportive even when i was jobless for 2 months.
My mother is my heroine as usual. She has been nothing but supportive thro my job search, encouraged me to take my time with the job hunting as long as i find a job that makes me truly happy. She was the one gave the advises i needed when i asked.
I am so truly blessed, and for 2012 i will be the best person i can be to make the people i love feel blessed to have me too. :)
Me: im sorry im hurting you. I wana try to make u happy today.
H: thats what ive been trying to do. If u were happy, that would have been enough.
Baby, im not letting go.
I just wish answers are laid right out in front of me. And that i don’t have to go thro this painful thing.. And hurt you.
I’m just so miserable right now. I know I can stop this madness, and run to you, find comfort in your arms instantly. But whats the point of that if i cant have what i desire, i’ll be painfully deprived and forever in your control.
I just wanted time to think. I didn’t as for this. Even that you couldn’t allow.. And I couldn’t be told what to do one more time..
Today was so well spent w haikal. Im so proud of my boy.
Hes been so thoughtful, generous, sweet and kind. Broke that i am, he never hestitates to step in to ensure that i have money for food, transport. And weekends are such a treat.
Being able to see him during the weekends.. I dont even know how to explain how amazing these weekends has been.
Im just so in love, it feels so real, mutual and downright amazing. This is the boy i want to spend my years with.
Okla bye.
Once i start getting paid, there are so many things i would like to do with my money.
- Amore Fitness membership
- Adidas gym attire(a couple of sets)
- Wedge shoes.. Like those blocky kinds i dont already have.
- Trip to BKK for shopping
- Awesome 2nd year anni with haikal
And then there are things that i must do with my money such as
- Pay my phone bills($99/month)
- Give money to mum/dad
- Start paying for my poly fees.
- Start saving for future
- Save to get epi lasik
Yikes. So scary. :(
